Thursday, August 21, 2008

Blog Break

Honestly, there is so much to say. I have never been one to lack blogging material. I have 3 million thoughts each day that could be subjects of blog posts. But right now I just feel a strong sense that I shouldn't be blogging. I've been plodding along, but suddenly it just doesn't feel right, and I feel like it is time to call it like it is and take a blog break for a little while. As I am having the best summer of my life with a new adorable baby girl, two cool 4-year olds, and my husband-soul-mate, miles away my cousin Karen is suffering the worst kind of suffering. It is too much to grasp. Right now we're in a holding pattern -- just waiting. Here in Pennsylvania we are waiting to hear that the end has come. Waiting each hour for updates from the hospital in New Hampshire. Waiting to hear that relief and sweet peace have come for Karen. Waiting to hear that a new long chapter of a terribly painful journey has just begun for her husband and two little girls, for my aunt, uncle, and cousin (Karen's brother), our entire family, all of her friends and the people she has touched in this world. Sometimes being far from the rest of my family feels really far. Now is one of those times. And yet, somehow, times like this are a reminder to me of how nonexistent time and space and distance really are. If you believe, if you are faithful, if you pray, please send out a loving wish for peace and strength for Karen, her family, and all who suffer so in the world right now. And please pray for creativity and ambition to all those out there working to find a cure for cancer. If you're interested in the blog my cousin's husband has been keeping, you can link to it here: http://karenstasko.wordpress.com/

25 comments:

Mom to 3 said...

Karen and her family have all of my prayers.

I hope you'll be back soon, Heather.

As a very tired and often stressed mom of baby twins and an energetic toddler, your blog is a source of inspiration and light for me. I look forward to reading it daily. It always brings a smile to my face (except today).

Best wishes to you and your family. Please come back soon.

The Jabber said...

I work on colon cancer. Though Karen's blog really made me sad, I have to thank you for the inspiration. It's the people, not the next publication, that matter to me most.

Take care,
Nicolle

Anonymous said...

I am so so so sorry that your wonderful family is going through this terribly difficult and sad time. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

Claudia and John said...

Dearest Family,

Karen and her family are in our thoughts and prayers. Her blog was very heartfelt.

Take all the time you need and know that we are all here when you come back. Take this time to be with the ones you love.

Love and Hugs,
Claudia

Rose Anne said...

Praying for your enite family!!
Take your break time and do what you need to do for yourself and your family...
God Bless,
Rose Anne

Ani said...

My thoughts and prayers are going out to Karen and your entire family.
God bless.

Ani said...

Oh Heather, I just learned about Karen's passing. I am so sorry for your loss. Her daughters and your entire family is in my prayers today.

Ani

Deanna said...

May the Lord Bless and keep your family comforted during the difficult time of her passing. It is in living that those who have gone before us want us to enjoy as they would only wish for more time for the same. Life is precious and can be way to short. May there be plenty of memories that are beautiful for her husband and girls to hold onto in the coming days. Peace be with you Karen!

Mom to 3 said...

I read Karen's husband's blog last night and again just now read the last entry.

My heart goes out to her entire family. I am so very sorry for their incredible loss. I will be thinking of all of you.

Anonymous said...

I just read about the passing of your cousin. My comments yesterday about prayers are now even more profound. I am so sad and sorry for your loss. I am grieving for her children and her husband and her mother.

Claudia and John said...

Ohhhh Dearest of Dears. I just heard the news and am sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to her family. You all are in our thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Claudia

Single PAP said...

i'm sorry to hear of karen's passing. i will keep the whole family in my prayers.

glamah16 said...

I can so understand where you at right right now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

sarah. said...

I am sorry to hear of the loss of your cousin. She looked like a beautiful person.

Mark and Sarah said...

I'm so sorry for your family's loss. Praying that Michael and the girls and the rest of your family will have space to grieve and remember their wife and mother and friend...and that joy will return soon.

Heather, I appreciate you listening to yourself and not blogging when it's not right. Of course, we look forward to your blogosphere return when it's time.

Nikki said...

I am so sorry to hear your loss. Your family is in my thoughts.

Beverly said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Tracy R said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm praying that you all find some comfort in memories of her as time passes.
Tracy R

Maia said...

Take care. Take all the time that you need. Thanks for giving us the link to Karen's husband's blog. We'll be here waiting to read when you want to write again.

Safiya said...

i'm sorry to hear of your loss, prof. j. my prayers are with you and your family, esp. karen's husband and children.

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you and your family.

Erin

Stella said...

I sending thoughts of peace.

ps I gave you an award.

Ginger said...

Hi Heather,

I came across your blog recently in my reading of Tara Livesay's blog. We are in the process of an adoption in Haiti and love to read other journals of adoption journeys in Haiti. Right now it is a wonderful connection to a country so far away that is home to our son and daughter.

Your post sharing the news of your cousin was very sad. I happened upon another blog that I wanted to share with you...I found it a while back... again as I was reading another Haiti adoption blog called Everyday Miracle. It is called Life. It is a blog that originally was started as a support for this man's wife as she battled cancer. I have been so incredibly touched by his thoughts and wisdom and feel a connection in the struggle with cancer as my own mother has breast cancer. Sadly,
his wife passed away last December as I remember. He now maintains the blog and chronicles his thoughts and feelings during this time of healing and moving forward with his life and the lives of his three children. Anyway, I thought of your cousin's husband...it might be a place of support or connection. Perhaps you could share it with him if it would be helpful in anyway...

http://marisavanderveen.wordpress.com/

I will think of your family and hold you all in our prayers. Thank you for your wonderful blog...it is a lovely connection to Haiti.

Blessings,

Ginger

guspiv said...

Sorry to hear about Karen. Your family is in my prayers.

guspiv said...

Sorry to hear about Karen. Your family is in my prayers.